Whew my friends life has been rough and beautiful at the same time.
Yesterday was my birthday and I didn’t do much other than go to a brewery, get drunk and then pass out. Jaime and I went to Rosarito on Monday for my birthday which was really nice.
Jaime and I were in a rough spot for a couple of weeks. We haven’t been seeing eye to eye. It was nice having the time to talk and spend time together. It almost felt like falling in love in the beginning but better because we already know each other. No bullshit.
I just want to say that I really love Mexico and forgot how much I loved Mexico. It’s not even that far, about a two hour drive. My family use to go to Mexico all the time when I was younger. We stopped going when the whole cartel situation got really bad.
Anyway the rough stuff is Hemet isn’t really working out. I do like Hemet and I think all the shit talking about it is blatant classism. I also don’t live in a bad area. Is there a lot of homelessness where I live? Yes but I literally forgot to lock my door and left it wide open for hours and not one thing was stolen.
Hemet isn’t working out because roommates. I just have a problem with people who don’t hold themselves at the same standard. I understand she stressed or whatever but it’s been constant lately and I’m honestly over it after the shit she pulled yesterday. I told Jaime I don’t want to live here anymore and that’s it. I already talked to my mom and it’s done.
It was my birthday yesterday and for the most part I don’t care if people forget or what not but my in-laws didn’t say a word to me. I’m done trying to be okay with their blatant disrespect. It’s not like this is the only thing they have done to me. Every family event, they never include me and say “oh we didn’t know she was coming.” Jaime and I have been married almost a year and I have been a significant person in his life for three years and it seems to be getting worse and not better and I have came to a conclusion that I don’t need that in my life. I have stayed so neutral and kind because of Jaime but I can’t do it anymore.
I won’t put up with bullshit anymore. I’m too old and bitter for it.
Day 21- What makes you sad?
- People who die because of not having health care
- Homelessness knowing there are many vacant homes
- Food waste
- America not having great public transportation when the technology is there
- Lack of worker’s right
- Price of education
- White supremacy
- Governments poisoning their own people (Flint and many other American cities)
- Mass incarceration
- The slave markets America created in Libya.
- Police brutality
- Justifying conservative bullshit
There are a lot I’m probably missing but these are a few things that make me sad.
Day 20- What Makes You Happy?
A lot of things make me happy but I guess I’ll list a few things that makes me happy.
- My husband
- Good food
- Looking at fine jewelry (not buying it)
- Random acts of kindness
- Good face masks
- Los Angeles
- Good sex
- People who bag their own groceries
- My family
- The San Francisco I remember
- Old photographs
- Hand written letters
Day 19- Your Favorite Movie
My favorite movie is hands down Amelie. Its a French rom-com. I don’t want to give too much details because if I haven’t seen it you really should. (It use to be on Netflix the last time I checked) Also it’s a hard movie to explain because it really is a web of stories. Just know that I have a gnome tattooed on my forearm because I love this movie so much.
Things seem to be looking up a little.
I don’t hate work as much I use to, mostly because my coworkers deadass don’t talk to me. It’s fine. (Mostly because I don’t talk to them either) At first it bothered me because I feel kinda lonely but it’s fine. I rather not speak to anyone then having drama for no fucking reason. Also a customer brought me tacos which was really nice like I can’t get over it. I am starting to get a little feisty with customers because some of them have been playing too much with me.
I got a letter from my brother. It really made my day. I really needed it to be honest because I feel for awhile I have been out of my mind and just sad. It’s the birthday blues I tell ya! Also for the fact that I feel so out of control and everything in my life sucks. I’m just dramatic but it’s been hard these past few weeks.
Today is my last day of work. I took a whole week off. I didn’t work that much either because I have been sick but a full time job is a little too much job for me.
I’m excited for my birthday! Jaime and I are going to go to Mexico. (I changed my mind on LA) We are going to the beach in Rosarito and I haven’t been there since I was a kid but I’m a little nervous because it’s spring break time and I hate a crowd, especially a college party crowd.
Day 18- A Photograph of yourself
I’m tired and don’t want to work look.
Day 17- Your Favorite Blogs
I’m not going to lie. I’m bad when it comes to reading blogs. I’m mostly on twitter to be honest when it comes to being online. I’ll post the blogs I do keep up with the most.
Bookish Luna is one of the first blogs I started following when I started this blog. I love it and it always reminds me the importance of reading and to get back on my shit when I haven’t picked up a book in awhile.
Coury Combs or Fancy Treehouse was a Blog I started following way back in the day. I have had about a million different blogs and the very first blog I did was on blogspot and her blog was recommended to me. I have been following her since. She’s one of my favorite fashion bloggers.
This is a blog that’s fairly popular but I love them! I started following abeautifulmess when I saw a video of Elise Larsen’s wedding which was beautiful and different that I had seen at the time. I love all the different diys and ideas that come from the blog. I’m a true fan.