We sat in silence in your mom’s van.
I tried my hardest not to let the tears roll down my cheek, but I failed. I didn’t want to show you anymore weakness or vulnerability, but I failed.
I stared down at my feet and said
“Well I guess you got to go.”
You were staring at me but I couldn’t dare to look at you.
I opened the van door and you said “Wait”
I looked back at you and you pulled me in for a kiss. You didn’t care that my nose was running all over your mouth. You didn’t let go.
You whispered in my ear “I love you a lot as a friend, as a lover, as whatever you want. I love you.”
“I love you too.”
You kissed me one more time and I finally left the van, Wondering when I would finally leave you