Thursday Morning and some Met Gala commentary.

Hello friends. I actually had some productive days since I last wrote. On Tuesday it was Jaime’s day off so we went to Souplantation because one of his customer gave him coupons for free meals. It was nice. We also went to one of our favorite breweries and drank too much. I had made plans to go out with my friend later that day.

I met up with my friend in Old Town Temecula. We had a few margaritas at a faux Mexican restaurant, a tiki bowl, and we ended up going to the brewery again because Jaime left his card. So it was safe to say I was very drunk. I had a good time though. It’s been a long time since I hung out with her alone and I missed her.

After she dropped me back home though, things went south. Jaime and I got in a fight and it was obviously heighten by the alcohol in both our systems. It doesn’t change the fact that I’m still upset about the situation but I love him and I really do want to work through are problems. I just hate how sometimes I’m the only one who tries to actively communicate when an issue arises. He just shuts down. It’s frustrating but we are still trucking through.

Yesterday I was a bit hung over. Not as bad as usual but still uncomfortable. I stayed in bed for a good amount of the morning. I watched a lot of YouTube videos. I have been into beauty and shopping haul videos lately. I also have been dressing up lately. I can make a correlation though. Usually when I feel like shit about my life I tend to dress up and be very into keeping up my appearance. I think it goes back to the philosophy, if you look good you feel good.

Anyway I ended up going shopping with my mom. My mom is a shopaholic but one who knows to go shopping on a budget.

I ended up getting this dress from Free People for ten dollars! (I feel like I have been doing a lot of retail therapy which isn’t necessary good because consumerism doesn’t fix anything but it will have do for now.)

Anyway a little side note is I have always been into fashion and also a shopaholic for some time now but with recent times my politics have changed drastically and with that so did my shopping habits. But to simplify Marxism, forced to work and born to shop amirite?

The Met Gala was a few days and it is one of my favorite bourgeoisie event to follow. This year’s theme was camp and the best way to describe camp in a very watered down version is drag, like the documentary Paris is Burning drag. Anyway here are a few of my favorite looks from that night.

This isn’t camp like at all but the dress is a work of art. I’m not a Kardashian fan but you can’t deny their influence and this dress is just wow. I have to say though, Kim has a certain aesthetic that never changes and it’s getting a bit boring but I still love this dress.

Cardi B has the best stylists out there hands down. It’s not my favorite look of hers or the night but top five of the night.

I would probably say Zendaya was my favorite look of the night. I love the whole show behind her look. Although I must point out that Zac Posen did it first with Claire Danes at the Met Gala in 2016. The execution was different though and it made all the difference.

Billy Porter killed it. This is fucking camp.

Emily Ratajkowski’s body is fucking sickening and I love an obvious Cher inspired look.

There were so many looks from that night that I loved but I don’t want to flood the post. I was a bit disappointed because a lot of people weren’t truly doing camp. The only fun thing about the Met Gala is the theme. I mean maybe the event itself is fun but I’ll probably never be rich enough or famous enough to be invited. Until next time my friends.

Friday Evening

My friends I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I walked out of my work Half Baked style. I didn’t cuss at anyone. I just grab everything from my locker, took my name tag off, clocked out and left.

I really couldn’t take it anymore. I really tried but it wasn’t worth it. I was seeing my mental health going down the drain and the whole point of moving to Hemet and starting a new job was to improve on it. It’s only gotten worse since I have left Murrieta but I think I’m really starting to see some sunshine in my life.

I applied to school for real. It’s a big amount but I can’t go on working at these shitty places. I need to focus on myself and I guess my education. I hate playing into this silly system but it has to be done. I’m just not excited about the expenses.

My anniversary is coming up and considering my friend is getting married a day after our anniversary, we can’t really do anything on the actual date. This upcoming Monday, we are going glamping in a yurt in Carlsbad. I’m pretty excited. I swear I’m always stressing but I always find the time and somehow the money to get away.

Like the other day I went to San Clemente. It’s a pretty boring beach town if you ask me but it’s still pretty. I did go to this amazing book store and bought too many books. Three on the French Revolution, one on drugs and corruption, one of the Wall Street crash and a David Sedaris’s book. Also had a good time at Pizza Port. For some reason I was convinced I didn’t like their beer but I’m a fan.

This weekend I don’t have much planned but on Sunday I’m going to the Millennium tour in LA and I’m so excited. I’m going with my cousins and for some reason I get anxiety when thinking about hanging out with my family. I mean shit everything gives me anxiety.

My brother sent me a letter the other day and it was such a shitty day and I’m just so glad that he’s alive. I’m being dramatic but it’s so weird to have someone you care about not be so far away but you can’t really communicate with them.

I’m a mess my friends but things are looking up, I promise.