Saturday Random Thoughts

  • With Mother’s Day coming up, I really am not ready for people asking me about when I’m thinking about having kids. It surprises me that people can still ask such an insensitive question especially when they know my circumstances. I had to tell my mom the other day that it’s been a year since my tubular pregnancy and I still haven’t gotten pregnant so I just don’t know if it’s going to happen ever. Like it was the most traumatizing experience I have ever had and I don’t think people realize this.
  • I have a job interview on Monday at a higher end retail store and I’m kinda excited. I’ve always wanted to work at a place like this but I can’t get too excited. I also know it’s probably really not that fun to work at.
  • I don’t know if I mentioned this but the show Love on Netflix is really good. I cried at the ending. A lot of the show reminded of Jaime and I. I kinda want to rewatch it again.
  • Man I’m not super into the beauty community but I love and live for drama. That whole James Charles situation doesn’t surprise me. I didn’t know who Tati was before this but she doesn’t fool me. She’s a wolf in sheep’s clothing. James Charles has done a lot of shitty things and the time you choose to expose him is when he promoted something that would compete with your brand. Gurrrrll you may of fooled other people but not me.
  • I decided to do my makeup today and I reminded myself why I don’t do this shit. It was fun but it doesn’t look good. At least it doesn’t look good photographed but what’s the point of doing yourself up if it doesn’t do well in photos? (I mean if it makes you feel good that’s all that matters right?)

Thursday Morning and some Met Gala commentary.

Hello friends. I actually had some productive days since I last wrote. On Tuesday it was Jaime’s day off so we went to Souplantation because one of his customer gave him coupons for free meals. It was nice. We also went to one of our favorite breweries and drank too much. I had made plans to go out with my friend later that day.

I met up with my friend in Old Town Temecula. We had a few margaritas at a faux Mexican restaurant, a tiki bowl, and we ended up going to the brewery again because Jaime left his card. So it was safe to say I was very drunk. I had a good time though. It’s been a long time since I hung out with her alone and I missed her.

After she dropped me back home though, things went south. Jaime and I got in a fight and it was obviously heighten by the alcohol in both our systems. It doesn’t change the fact that I’m still upset about the situation but I love him and I really do want to work through are problems. I just hate how sometimes I’m the only one who tries to actively communicate when an issue arises. He just shuts down. It’s frustrating but we are still trucking through.

Yesterday I was a bit hung over. Not as bad as usual but still uncomfortable. I stayed in bed for a good amount of the morning. I watched a lot of YouTube videos. I have been into beauty and shopping haul videos lately. I also have been dressing up lately. I can make a correlation though. Usually when I feel like shit about my life I tend to dress up and be very into keeping up my appearance. I think it goes back to the philosophy, if you look good you feel good.

Anyway I ended up going shopping with my mom. My mom is a shopaholic but one who knows to go shopping on a budget.

I ended up getting this dress from Free People for ten dollars! (I feel like I have been doing a lot of retail therapy which isn’t necessary good because consumerism doesn’t fix anything but it will have do for now.)

Anyway a little side note is I have always been into fashion and also a shopaholic for some time now but with recent times my politics have changed drastically and with that so did my shopping habits. But to simplify Marxism, forced to work and born to shop amirite?

The Met Gala was a few days and it is one of my favorite bourgeoisie event to follow. This year’s theme was camp and the best way to describe camp in a very watered down version is drag, like the documentary Paris is Burning drag. Anyway here are a few of my favorite looks from that night.

This isn’t camp like at all but the dress is a work of art. I’m not a Kardashian fan but you can’t deny their influence and this dress is just wow. I have to say though, Kim has a certain aesthetic that never changes and it’s getting a bit boring but I still love this dress.

Cardi B has the best stylists out there hands down. It’s not my favorite look of hers or the night but top five of the night.

I would probably say Zendaya was my favorite look of the night. I love the whole show behind her look. Although I must point out that Zac Posen did it first with Claire Danes at the Met Gala in 2016. The execution was different though and it made all the difference.

Billy Porter killed it. This is fucking camp.

Emily Ratajkowski’s body is fucking sickening and I love an obvious Cher inspired look.

There were so many looks from that night that I loved but I don’t want to flood the post. I was a bit disappointed because a lot of people weren’t truly doing camp. The only fun thing about the Met Gala is the theme. I mean maybe the event itself is fun but I’ll probably never be rich enough or famous enough to be invited. Until next time my friends.