Saturday Afternoon

I’m counting my last days of freedom my friends. Today Jaime and I actually woke up early to do some errands. We always say we are going to wake up early but never do.

We first went to Kohl’s because Jaime needed more dress pants for work. I fucking hate Kohl’s but I love all the deals they have for fine jewelry. Jaime ended buying me a necklace that I have been wanting for awhile.

He did not buy it for a $125. There is no way in hell I would let him pay that much. He got it for $30 plus a 15% discount. Jcpenny is also a place that has amazing deals on fine jewelry. Most likely unethical though.

I finally went to the bougie tea place and it was so nice. I got some cotton candy milk tea and it comes in a nice reusable glass. It was $5. It’s a high price for tea but at least it comes with a glass you can keep. The place is called Mr. Chi if you are near the Wildomar area but who the fucks lives in the Inland empire? Barely anyone. (This is a lie but honestly there isn’t much to do around here but drink at wineries and breweries)

We came back home and he had to go straight home. I really thought that was going to be the end of my day but I ended going to the Lake Elsinore Outlet with my brother and my mom because my brother needed some new running shoes before he left.

If you don’t know by now, I’m a fucking mall rat. I’m a lot better than I use to be but I still love to shop. It’s one of my biggest character flaws but I remember going to the outlets all the time as a kids growing up. Now it’s just an outlet filled with empty stores. It’s honestly fucking bizarre.

I didn’t buy anything but my mom bought me a tote bag and some pants all for $12! I don’t have a picture of either but here are photos of my outfit and some lunch bag I wanted but I honestly don’t have money to spare like that.

Anyway I see myself creeping out of my depressive episode. I finally cleaned my room and I’m honestly excited to work again.

I’m really having second thoughts on school. I’m starting to finally come afloat with my finances and I’m really about to get myself into more debt. I’m really not fucking excited about it. I know I don’t have to but getting a degree is the only way I feel I can be a fucking adult with a fucking “adult” job. I hate it.

Anyway my friends I’m watching a movie right now that’s on Hulu. It’s called I’m Just Fucking With You. I’m about half way in and it’s bizarre. It’s a thriller and I’m still not sure what exactly is going on but I do enjoy it. I’ll have to write about it tomorrow when I’m finished. I really should do movie reviews because I’m always watching a movie.

That reminds me so I finished the movie Always Be My Maybe on Netflix. I liked it because I’m a huge fan of romcoms and it reminded me of the San Francisco so much and I’ve been really homesick lately for some reason. What I didn’t like is I’m tired of this trope that’s always in romcoms that a rich person is all depressed, rude as fuck, and lonely. They have everything in life but love. I’m tired of the same fucking story honestly. There are too many romcoms out there with this trope. I still enjoyed it though.

I also watched another movie yesterday called The Perfection. It’s on Netflix and all I can say is that movie is fucked up. It’s a weird thriller about music prodigies and some pedophelia elements.

That’s all I got for today my friends, until next time.

Wednesday Morning

It’s been awhile but I have been busy to be fair. I’m finally going back to work after a week and a half off. It has been so nice and I’m not excited to go back.

Anyway this past weekend was my friend’s Bachelorette party. The first night I had too much fun. The second night I was just hungover. The third day was cleaning up and a long trek back home. (We were in Santa Ynez which is the wine country of Santa Barbara)

It’s so crazy to think that I met my friend just a few years ago working at Lowes. We were just two young single girls who were boy crazy and just wildin out on the weekend. Now we are two old ladies with their husbands. It’s crazy how fast the years go by and how much change happens in those years. I can’t seem to get over it.

The other days I have been lazy like usual, hanging out with my mom and hanging out with Jaime and also one of his sisters. I have calmed down about the family situation but I really still don’t feel good about it. I’m tired of fighting for acceptance and love. This isn’t grade school, you know?But trying to ignoring all the bullshit around you and not being bitter in the heart is hard.

Also I watched Us yesterday and did want to talk about it a little bit.

I was entertained by the movie but I do think it was just ok. I don’t think it’s fair to compare Get Out and Us because they are two different movies with wildly different concepts. I think Lupita Nyong’o did an amazing job and I love the visuals and the score. I just think the story was a bit sloppy. I would still recommend seeing it but it’s not mind blowing. What I got out of it was the relationship with class in America. It’s suppose to be a metaphor but it really is lost in a weird narrative of underground people and it’s a bit ableist. Class conversations are very important to me but like I said I don’t think it was done well. One movie that I did enjoy and I feel did it successfully was Sorry To Bother You.