Saturday Afternoon

I’m counting my last days of freedom my friends. Today Jaime and I actually woke up early to do some errands. We always say we are going to wake up early but never do.

We first went to Kohl’s because Jaime needed more dress pants for work. I fucking hate Kohl’s but I love all the deals they have for fine jewelry. Jaime ended buying me a necklace that I have been wanting for awhile.

He did not buy it for a $125. There is no way in hell I would let him pay that much. He got it for $30 plus a 15% discount. Jcpenny is also a place that has amazing deals on fine jewelry. Most likely unethical though.

I finally went to the bougie tea place and it was so nice. I got some cotton candy milk tea and it comes in a nice reusable glass. It was $5. It’s a high price for tea but at least it comes with a glass you can keep. The place is called Mr. Chi if you are near the Wildomar area but who the fucks lives in the Inland empire? Barely anyone. (This is a lie but honestly there isn’t much to do around here but drink at wineries and breweries)

We came back home and he had to go straight home. I really thought that was going to be the end of my day but I ended going to the Lake Elsinore Outlet with my brother and my mom because my brother needed some new running shoes before he left.

If you don’t know by now, I’m a fucking mall rat. I’m a lot better than I use to be but I still love to shop. It’s one of my biggest character flaws but I remember going to the outlets all the time as a kids growing up. Now it’s just an outlet filled with empty stores. It’s honestly fucking bizarre.

I didn’t buy anything but my mom bought me a tote bag and some pants all for $12! I don’t have a picture of either but here are photos of my outfit and some lunch bag I wanted but I honestly don’t have money to spare like that.

Anyway I see myself creeping out of my depressive episode. I finally cleaned my room and I’m honestly excited to work again.

I’m really having second thoughts on school. I’m starting to finally come afloat with my finances and I’m really about to get myself into more debt. I’m really not fucking excited about it. I know I don’t have to but getting a degree is the only way I feel I can be a fucking adult with a fucking “adult” job. I hate it.

Anyway my friends I’m watching a movie right now that’s on Hulu. It’s called I’m Just Fucking With You. I’m about half way in and it’s bizarre. It’s a thriller and I’m still not sure what exactly is going on but I do enjoy it. I’ll have to write about it tomorrow when I’m finished. I really should do movie reviews because I’m always watching a movie.

That reminds me so I finished the movie Always Be My Maybe on Netflix. I liked it because I’m a huge fan of romcoms and it reminded me of the San Francisco so much and I’ve been really homesick lately for some reason. What I didn’t like is I’m tired of this trope that’s always in romcoms that a rich person is all depressed, rude as fuck, and lonely. They have everything in life but love. I’m tired of the same fucking story honestly. There are too many romcoms out there with this trope. I still enjoyed it though.

I also watched another movie yesterday called The Perfection. It’s on Netflix and all I can say is that movie is fucked up. It’s a weird thriller about music prodigies and some pedophelia elements.

That’s all I got for today my friends, until next time.

Sunday Shopping and a little bit of racial profiling

Yesterday was really nice. After writing my post yesterday I felt very anxious. Honestly I really feel like a fucking loser back at square one. It’s not a good feeling. I know it takes time but fuck can I have my shit together already? I started to paint my house but it didn’t make me feel any better. I claim to be a home body but I hate being in the house all day. I feel like I’m losing my fucking mind. My mom invited me to go to Chino Hills for some shopping.

Everything was nice for the most part except for a small mishap at Marshall’s.

I don’t know how to say this but I pretty much experience racial aggressions everyday of my life. I usually ignore them because it’s not worth my time and honestly you just get use to it but yesterday I wasn’t in the mood.

I went into the dressing room to try on one item. The first odd thing is the dressing room attendant took the dress out of my hand examined the dress and told me it was cute and handed me a number. I didn’t see that as necessary but okay. I try it on and take some photos for the blog and get out of the dressing room. The lady was helping another person when I got out and told me I had to wait because she had to check me out. I didn’t understand I had one item that I clearly still had in my hand. I told her she was tripping and then I left. She followed me for a little bit too but I guess gave up. There was no need to check me out especially since you already scoped what I had and I had one item.

I’m always for the worker. I know how shitty these jobs can be but if you take the time out of your day to be disrespectful best believe it’s not going to be pretty.

It got worse when I told my mom about it and my mom don’t play. I bet the whole store heard her yell at this lady for racial profiling me.

Anyway I got a lot of cute things yesterday and for the most part the day was great. I’m glad as the days go on I’m getting closer and closer to my mom. I hate that it took losing a pregnancy to realize how much my mom truly is a ride or die. I hate that I didn’t appreciate my mom as much as before but I’m trying to make up for lost time. Until next time my friends but here are some photos of the things I got yesterday.